In The Name of Love

Love is a holly, pure, sacred, make people grow. In certain stage of life, we learn about the other gender, about love and wish to obtain someone to share our laughs and grieves, everything in life. But sometime we tarnish it, and saying that it was in the name of love, the adultery in a courtship period. Whose fault is that ? Whose responsibility is that ? In ancient times, woman was the one who blame for an adultery, like those in bible, John 8:2-11, Jesus and the adulterous woman. In that chapter, we learned that Jesus returned the favor into our own conscience. He said that everyone who has the least of all sins may stoning the woman first. So, whose fault is the adultry in a courtship period ? -Both of them- Everyone has it own reason to defend themselves, a scapegoat.

When we look into this chapter further, we found that we sometimes in life was being put in the same situation as Jesus did. We must make a decision that against our consciensce. In one side we must do something professionally, but in the other side our conscience scream for justification of our acts, our decisions and in certain spare time, we looked back and say "What have I done ?" "Did I do that ?" "Did I take that decision ?"How can we handled such situation then ? We must challenge our conscience and look further in each side, Is there anything we can do to solve this problem ? Will we fullfil our role if we take that decision ? Is there anyone who will loss something because our acts ? After we look ourselves with these question, make a decision and said to ourselves that we have take the best choice we have.

If I must stoned the adulterous woman I wish that I was the last who stoned her ... J

The Crucified King

In this Easter season I try to read something that I have think about all these years, relativity. I used to think that all things were relative. There is no absolute things and all value are range. After years passed by and I become wiser. I now think that there is something absolute in this mortal world, an ideal. An ideal will be an ideal if not being brought in a real life as a way of life, as a guidance, but sometime in real life, the ideal absolutism was corrupted by the one who embraced them because sometime the ideal itself would crush their follower.

Like the journey of the sun, there will be a sunrise and sunset for everything, that is a Law of Great Truth in Buddhism. All religion will vanquish from this world someday, and there will be immoral men and women on top of it, spreading blasphemy and wrong ideas about this world and eventually there will be someone that we call prophet again someday and found a new religion. There is endless cycle of it and human usually tried to preserved everything whatever it takes. They sometimes corrupt the ideal itself so it can be preserved in a text or religion's ritual or anything and eventually it lost its value someday, forgotten.

I learned in a Christian school for almost 20 years, so their teachings were carved deep in my heart as deep as my buddhist identity and somehow make me understand a value of an ideal. Jesus has an ideal that God save everybody that need, He didn't want to be a salvation for a tribe or two, but the world itself, furthermore he didn't come to liberate a tribe that didn't attempt to liberate themselves. In His era, Jesus dealt this kind problems. He did his work and eventually He was crucified and died by the one he wanted to save, the minority of society that searched a salvation and a king to liberate them that days because they knew that they will not liberated if they are not attempted to, they expected some miracles like in the old testament and they were disappointed by Jesus, so they rejected him and make him as a scapegoat of political issues that time.

Are you ready to shoulder the same cross as His cross and denied yourself ?

To settled the most urgent issues in your life and carry on your ideal what whatever it takes ?

BTW, Happy Easter Guys !!

 

The Impeccable Twins

Once upon a time in an ancient China, there was a story about a woman. She has a goddess like beauty and very skillful in a martial art. She had a martial art temple called palace of one thousand flowers. She lived in that place just like a princess with all of her female student. One day, there is dying scholar dumped by a thieves near the palace, somehow he survived and became the palace's special guest because he's the only male in that palace.

Time passed by and the master of the palace, princess Kiau Goat have fallen in love with the scholar and proposed him. He refused her proposal and planned to leave with one of her maid that took care of him while he wounded. The princess was very angry and kill both of them and learned that they have twin male babies. One of the babies was adopted and raised by her as a young martial artist. What Happened to the other ? His twin brother was escaped from a misery and had been taken care by top ten criminals in the dark valley, the hideout of all criminal in ancient China.

Well, If I was that scholar I will try to love the princess, however that's how the story goes I guess ... :)

Will Love Grow ?

I remembered an old story about my friend. She is a very special for me. At the first time we met at RSUPDK. We take a same young doctor education program, Forensic. When the first time we met I was mesmerized. She is a cute little girl with a beautiful smile. In a short word, we introduced ourselves and we exchange a facebook ID, and then everything running so fast, I've found myself have been fallen to her. Hours has been passed, days, every night I  got myself on a facebook or YM only to chat with her.

We talk about almost everything, but I knew she hid something from me. When the time passed by eventually I learned that her relationship was in a brink of destruction because her family didn't want her guy. I just guessed that I was the one who worsened her relationship because her family want me to substitute him. But eventually heaven was not blessing our relationship too. She was matchmaking with some other guy. When I want to confirm this matter, she only said that she want to think about it and eventually she take some government program and well, she is in ambon right now. We've never talked again, I missed her for some time but I guess that was the end, for us.

For the time being I was introduced by the owner of a clinic where I usually work to. She's a dentist and for the second in my life I was mesmerized again. I don't know what make me like that, but one thing that I know that I was in a situation like my old friend but I'm in the shoe of the last lucky guy. Sometime I asked this question to myself; "Will love grow in our heart ?" Only time will tell us for sure.

Busy Busy Busy

Well, I'm off from my writing yesterday because I have a marathon job shift. hiuft ... That’s crazy job shift and unbelievebly I accepted that kind of job shift. Hm .... Are we (doctors) are just the same with a garment labour ? I don’t know about that either, but one thing I know, when I get home I just throw myself on my bed. Ooohh .... I miss my bed .... Really.

One thing I realized next was I need to be in the top of the foodchain, I need to open a private practice, so I can work for myself and all my time is for myself ! Well, that’s all ... By the way, HAPPY EASTER !

The Legacy

Have we ever see our doctors daily life ? In their offices, they are very powerful and we have to obey every order that they give to us, even they can make us put off our pants and inject us ! They are humans too in their daily life, they born, they grow, become fragile and they eventually died. Did their knowledge, their spirit died with them ? -No- Where do they save all of that spirit, knowledge and skill ? In medical school ? -Half true- They keep all that treasure in their legacy, their pupil.

Like in Ip Man 2 movie, we eventually need a successor for everything we have. Our money, skill, knowledge, attitude and the most important of all their way of life. In Ip Man 2 there is a special scene that suitable to this idea. When Ip Man talk with his pupil about why did he didn't want to show his skill and trample all martial arts schools is that when he grow old, let say 10 years later, in that time, there is a lot of new skilled martial arts master that  has ripen their skill, in that time he will be beaten very easily, because his strength and speed was not as great as them, even he has more skill and knowledge about martial arts.

In order to solve that problem everyone have their own legitimate successor. We will eventually married and have kids, they will eventually become our successor, our clan name, our house, our knowledge, our way of life, everything that we possessed now. Doctors have some masters that will inherited their skill and knowledge to their pupil. But, not all of his pupil inherited their spirit and their way of life, the most important treasure, the core of their personality and life.

Are you ready to inherit something ?

 

The Code of Virtue

In our daily life, we often get ourselves in a situation that when we do something we will feel bad for it but eventually we did it. We feel guilty and ashamed for everything we do that time but alas, nothing we can do for now. It recall some very good advice from "The Last Samurai" movies. It tell us about some kind situation that similar to his one. The story roll out in around of Nathan Algren, an American military tactician that help Meiji government rule out some resistance from some old Shogun families. He feel ashamed of his deed in his last war because he betrayed his enemies and for that reason he often having a nightmares about it.

In the first time, he feel the meaning of becoming a true warrior, a Samurai. He learns the virtue of becoming one and he found the answer and the cure for is nightmares, a reason to fight and atonement for his betrayal. Is he become a hypocrite ? In a real life there is always a two side in a one piece, like a coin. When we become a hero in one side, we will not always become a hero too for the other side. Then how do we know that we are on the right track ?

Well, this is quite troublesome question, because there will be a lot of answers for this question. The answer is we need a code to embrace in our life, a code of virtue that we will always considered when we do something. The next question is "what kind code we should have?" The answer is quite simple too, any code will do fine as long as we concern with the risks of our choices, like Nathan Algren in the movies, he found all answers he always asked to himself as a warrior, a reason to fight and finally he found a suitable code of virtue for himself, as a Samurai.