Risk of the Job

Some people say that become a doctor is a great career, some say being lawyer is much better, some say being a multilevel marketing agent is much much better, but when we see all that kind proposal have it's own risk and it's own benefit. The most considerable things now is our style. When we know our style, we good in the job, then it's more than a job, it's a blessing, and all we can say next is "This is my style ..." :)

The Pandora Box

Last night, I have a little chat with my Facebook friend. He has a problem with a girl he crush on. The problem is he curious about her past relationship, what kind relationship she had with another man, was she still virgin, etc. In his country, the men still have a high hopes that their wife are still virgin until the first night. And for some reason he fell uncomfortable about this. Well, I said to him "Is it really matter to know all that ?" He said "Actually no, but I feel curious about her past." I stopped and said "Let me ask you one thing first, What will you do after you know about it ?" "well, practically I can't do nothing." He replied me. "Precisely, you only sowing a seed of a quarreling in a future, If you really married her someday."

He said, "How could that be ?" He replied me again. "Well, basically you know something that according your tradition a taboo, right ?"; "It means, It's a secret that she must shut from a stranger, so what do you think will happen if you married her and you know about it ?"; "You will make it as an excuse to bent her will, when you loose your grasp in your quarrels." "Well, I'm not like that you know, you know me right ?" "Well, basically, we are just the same, men want a domination, so, we will achieve it even using that kind way"; I continued "When you loose your cool you'll eventually spit it out even in the slightest part and It's very unpleasant to hear you know" I didn't get his respond after that, maybe he has a deep thought about it.

Few minutes later he asked me "What should I do then ?" "Well, You still want to know right ?"; "It's your right to know all about your couple when the time is correct, but for now, I think that kind of knowledge is like a pandora box." I continued "It's very tempting to open it but once you open it, what you unleash is your own ugly side." "How come ?" "Well, I have my own experience you know, but little different from yours." I replied. "Oh, okay, I can accept that for now." Well, that's the end of our little chat. The most important thing to think about for now is, each of us have our own pandora boxes, our dirty little secrets that eventually we'll entrusted it into someone we trust someday of course. Someone we love for example, but will they be able to open and accept it ? I don't have that answer for now. But we must remembered the last thing that buried down deep inside a pandora box, -Yes, a hope-

How about you ?

Temptation

Yesterday, I've found myself in a dilemma. I've accepted some job that make me do unnecessary laboratory test eventually, because I didn't get any money if I didn't do it. Are we -doctors- really that poor ? Such question wavering in my head. But when I looked back in myself, I wanted to become a doctor because I admired my father's doctor, He's so kind and not doing a foul things like I want to commit. So, I've made my mind, I will do useful tests for my patients only. But, I remembered that some patient didn't want to check in a laboratory, even they have to do it for their own sake. They have so many reasons, and the most common reason is money. Well, I think it's their right to said "no" because they have a right to do so.

Well, maybe the right question is "What have been happened in this world ?"

Never Say I don't Care

When I saw some scene in Kamen Rider Fourze, I eventually remembered my younger brother and my grandmother. It's a scene when Kamen Rider Meteor said that He don't care anymore to his friend. The day she died, he eventually cry and ask for apology to her. When I asked him why, He said "I've done so many mean things to her, and I can't afford to say I'm sorry." After I learn the situation, I learned that my younger brother a week before my grandmother died had a feud with her. He said he don't care about here and wish that she could die anyway. The next movie scene is that the Kamen Rider Metor feel sorry for what he said and searched a cure for his friend. Much less the same.

So, Never say I don't Care because You'll sorry for it eventually !

Money

"When someone life's ended, there is no way to claim it back." Most of them have this kind of thought so, they who have the ability to prolonged it, or cure the sickness that haunted them were considered god. Nowadays, that kind knowledge and skills were passed through in medical school. But as we can see now, medical doctors are humans, not a god, so they possessed all kind of human's weakness. They need rest, eat, refresh their skill and knowledge, certification, keep themselves healthy, and all of that need money. Not all medical doctors are rich some can be considered poor, but no one guarantee them when they got sick or one of their kin in a serious illness and need a financial support.

Who will guarantee our financial things ? Government ? No ... We are the one who will guarantee it !

The Holly and the unholly

By oneself evil is done, by oneself one is also stained. 
By oneself evil is not done, by oneself one becomes a saint anyway. 
Holy or unholy depending on himself; no one can purify another person
(Dhammapada XII, 9)

Some of us believe that a sin can be eradicated by doing certain ritual or certain thing or maybe believe some doctrine. But in the real world there is no such thing. We will eventually pay our sin, cash in exact amount. "How this thing can be happen then ?" some of us ask this to me. The answer is simple because we bound to "Law of Kamma". So, based in this concept we only inherit our own kamma so, no one can give a holly tittle or lift our bad kamma.

This concept is the hardest concept to be accepted, because our human nature always searching a scape goat for our misfortunes. Some of us still think that there is a superior being that will give us misfortune if we not doing as He want. I don't say there is not, but He didn't give us the misfortune, we are the one that make it. Then, how about misfortune that happen even we have done all good things, some of us said that He gave us a trial, to see our faith. That kind of god is so cruel. We, Buddhists said that our bad kamma reached it's maturation.

"So, we can not ask for help ?" according to the text, we can't, but there is a lot of superior beings than us, human that will help us because they have a vow, one of Their vow is "I will not reach nibbana until hell is empty". This vow was said by Ksitigarbha boddhisatva and there is more of Them. All of their names were listed in a Maha Karuna Dharani. The most famous of them is Avalokitesvara Boddhisatva. She appeared in many form, but the most well known form is in a lady form that wear a white robe and carry a bottle and she sit on a Lotus.

So what do you believe ?

The forgotten seasoning

Do you know what is the most important seasoning in the world ? Salt ? No; Love ? No; Then what ?

Let me tell you something, Yesterday, I was sick, sneezing, coughing, my mouth feel bitter. It's awful. I don't feel like to eat anything ! I just want to sleep that time. Then my father told me this : "What is the most important seasoning ?" I said "I don't know !" My Father said "It's health, so go and get some." I didn't get it that time but, when I thought about it, It's make sense. When you sick, all good food out there taste awful, but when you in a good shape, anything look tasty (even some are not as tasty as their look). :)