Existence

Last night, my brother asked my help to convince my parent to buy Blackberry. But I said, "No, you must get it with your own." Then he asked me why, I said "Do you know something that you will always can count on ?", He said "No". "Ok, do you remember the 1st habit from 7th habit ?" "Oh, ok, The only things you always can count on is your habit, right" - "Yes, that's correct" - "What's your point there ?" He asked me again. "Well, actually I asked to do it because what you need is not a Blackberry, but an existence right ?" "What do you mean ?" He said, "What did you really want?" I asked him. He stopped and think for a while, He continued "What I really want is our mother return like the old days, and or father recognized me again"; "Ok, what's next then ?", I continued "What you need to do is shape your habit, a good one, so it will help you to get what you want, not only Blackberry, but everything, because make a good habit it's just like shaping your existence, do you want to be recognized right? to be heard right ?" I continued again "So, once you can establish a good habit, shaped your existence, you probably will get one."

"But it takes long turn to make it true then." - "Hey, there's nothing easy in this world"- I got some sleep .... Zzzz ....

The Reshaped Puzzle piece

-If our love story is a puzzle, then you are the piece that make it perfect-

Sometime we noticed that a love story is not like playing a mere puzzle, because it's not always fit perfectly. How do we solved this ? Simple, we reshape the pieces or we search new pieces that can fit or search other pieces that can make it fit. But what if you're the reshaped piece ? Would you resist ? What if you're the new piece that can fit ? Would you accept that you're only a replacement ? What if you're one of other pieces that can make it complete ? Would you keep it that way ? -What a complicated question ! - Yet it has a simple answer, I do. Why the answer is "I do", because every relationship has it's own risk, it's own problem, so it's just the same everywhere, but a difference occur when different decision was made by each player in the relationship - A different edge of puzzle that will fit to its pair, the reshaped puzzle piece-

I want ...

When I open my facebook, I've got this video. A very nice video, and truly makes your heart melt, even you're not a feline lover. The sweet look of the cat in this commercial make me want to cuddle them. The dubbing are really great, very touching too. How about the music ? Well simple to say that the music bring you further to your fantasy.Well simple to say that the scenes tell you everything.

This kind commercial is very rare nowadays and simply to say that the scene tell you about loneliness and you're their only savior even in the real life, it's not like what we imagine. -Yes- The adopted animal being naughty, rip your couch, pee on your door, etc. But hey, that is a price of a commitment, Yes ? Well, pick and carry one of them home is just like pick and carry a girl or a guy deep further into your life. You need patience and true to say a lot of communication and love of course.

So what are you going to do next ? :)

Food chain

Several years ago, when I was in medical school, I have no idea what kind of job that a doctor do. I used to think that became one are so noble yet precious. Time passed and people changed, I knew that we have unseen enemies out there. Name it, Nurses, Midwifes, The specialists, Lawyer and the worst of all is mass media. Become a medical doctor in my country is like enter a giant jungle. Yes, You would prefer to become the top of food chain of course, in this case The specialists are the one. How about the Nurses and the Midwifes ? Well, in my opinion, they are just a hyena, hunt in a pack and prey some weak and helpless enemy (poor patients). and The Lawyer ? Well, They are just the Herring bird waiting some doctor made a mistake and they strip them to their bones, event the specialist and the media blow it up so the doctor have nowhere to hide. Sometimes, "kill" the doctor life, strip their rank and the media made another bad things again, blow up unclear healing methods and make it god like treatment.

Where is the medical doctor ? We are just a scapegoat. when something bad happen we are the one who will be blame. The hyenas, when deal something they cannot handle -They know that- but they handle it anyway, they blame the doctor who took care the patient before they do. The specialists, in certain condition blame us when something bad happens to their patient "You lack of experiences" they say, or "Do you know your role ?"   Well, that is just another sad story of medical doctor in this country. what about government ? I don't know which side our government was, but their rules press us hard. Maybe the government don't know what is looked like to catch an illness ? Well, who knows ...

Darkside

This evening, I saw my DVD collection, and hey, I found my Star Wars movies, nor much, episode 3 and 4. When I saw this, my memory turned back to my high school age. It's my first touch with Jedi things. Everything I mean, the cool light saber, Force, the dark side. The most interesting of all is the dark side. Yes, It's just like the movies told us that the dark side  looks more powerful, more destructive, but not all of it true. It ruin your life, cost more of course and make you become a bad guy.
What's the relationship with your high school age then. Just one thing, in my high school age I made a small decision that will change my life course. I've decided to defeat some guy in a school grade, but, too bad, I've lost the battle because I fell in the dark side, you can say that. I just focus to defeat that guy, so sometime I've lost my concentration and the true meaning of study, and loose many other beautiful thing that I could reach that time, yes new love. She is not too beautiful, her skin is pale just like a draculina, but her beauty had mystical aura. Maybe she is really a draculina then. Well who knows.
When my last year in high school my English teacher, gave us an assignment about exchange student. Well, the draculina was part of my team. My mistake was scold her, saying all of those bad things because I didn't believe her, I just wan to get a good point and beat that guy in my last year. She run away then, and make a new team, and I just make a new one, from another class, someone I can control, manipulate. Now the draculina will married this year with her bride, not me of course.  

The Serpent and The Cow

Once upon a time, there is a huge serpent alive. The serpent is so big so that can swallow a full grown cow at once. One day the serpent is anxious because there is nothing can satisfy his appetite. So he wander through forest outskirt, and he met an old rat, the rat scared and beg for a mercy, "Oh, mighty lord, I beg you a mercy for this humble old flesh, please do't eat me." "I'm not interested to eat you, old rat, your flesh are not edible anymore", the serpent is waving away.
In another path he met a young cow being tied to tree. The serpent bloat "Why don't you beg for a mercy foolish cow", the cow said "Neither I beg for a mercy, I would be eaten by human next day." The serpent stop and watch the cow carefully "How could that be ? Human made your kin work for them right ? And eat your flesh too ? Are you trying to make fun of me ?" The serpent lost it's patience and twisted the cow. The cow was swallowed at once. The human stabbed the serpent with along spear and after a few days suffer, the serpent dead.

Love Tragedy

What will happen if "Romeo and Juliet" meet ninja story ? - Yes, Shinobi -

This afternoon I went to DVD shop and pick some movies, one of it is Shinobi, Heart Under the Blade. It has a good mix between drama, ninja action and romance. The music is good, it represent the story too. The OST tittle is Heaven by Ayumi Hamasaki Heaven. The drama and the tension building is not as good as the anime version or the manga version. Both share the same tittle -Basilisk-. Basically the story line is rather twisting, very different from the Basilisk tittle, the character name is very different from it's manga or anime version, but hey, I like it !

Overall it's good to watch and less gore than it's anime or manga version, but if you already have watch the anime or read the manga you'll rather confuse sometime or maybe you'll disappoint about the characterization and tension building. It'll be a spoiler if I tell you everything right ? :)

Action  : 8/10
Music   : 8/10
Story    : 5/10 (Sorry, I already have watched the anime version and read the manga too)
Overall : 7/10

10 Things You Should Know Before Seeing Your Physician

1.  Your Physician is not a god
2.  They can't heal you, but They can make things better and reduce more problem to occur
3.  They make living from their service, so They have a right to get an appropriate payment
4.  Tell Them the symptom, not your illness, better if you can describe it
5.  Tell Them medicine that you already take, better if you know the name of it
6.  Tell Them honestly, because They won't bite you at least
7.  Ask them all things you don't know about your health problem that makes you come to see them
8.  Their advice or suggestion won't kill you, so ask for their professional opinion more if you need it
9.  Do their advice or suggestion, because sometimes it's the best medicine for your problem

10. Make sure you come to the next session, so They can follow up your health problem

Wizard of Oz

One day, my friend came to me and said "Finally my big brother take that test ... " with a long face.
I said "What kind of test ?" "Well, residency test ... " she said. I stopped and looked into her eyes ... "What's with the long face; It's a good news right ?" "Well, actually I wanted to take the exam too ..." she said. "What's happened then ?" She remains silent. "Hm ... do you know wizard of oz ?" I asked her. "Yes ... What's your point then ?" She looked into my eyes.
"Well, every character already have something that they are looking for, right ?" *She nod* "It's just the same with you." "You already have all you need to take that kind of exam too, right ?" *She nod again* "But money matters right ?" *She nod again* "So, brace yourself and consider that you're in the same shoes with Dorothy, searching your "Wizard of  Oz", an opportunity" She remains silent. "The opportunity will come again for sure, so until that time, you can take your time make some money to take the exam." "Is that OK for you ?" *She smiled*

Flashback in My Buddhist Identity

It means :

SABBE SATTA = Every creature
KAMMASSAKA = Own his/her own kamma
KAMMADAYADA = Inherit his/her own kamma
KAMMAYONI = Born from his/her own kamma
KAMMAPATISARANA = Connected with his/her own kamma
YAM KAMMAM KARISSANTI = Being protected by his own kamma
KALYANAM VA PAPAKAM VA = Good or bad kamma has been done
TASSA DAYADA BHAVISSANTI = He/she will inherit it